If This Were My Last Podcast

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Let everything happen to
you: beauty and terror.

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Just keep going.

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No feeling is final

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I'm just sat here with a cup of
coffee next to no script, and

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I just want to record a podcast

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based on partly what I've just
read, a poem by Rainer Rilke, and

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that line literally stopped me in
my tracks and blew my socks off.

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I will return to that line and that
quote at the end of the podcast,

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and I will read the poem to you.

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But if this was my last podcast,
which I sincerely hope it is not,

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what would be the one or two bits
of advice at this stage in my life

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that I would leave you with that
I think would be most beneficial?

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And I think it'd be a couple of things

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Hi, I'm Steven Webb and welcome to
Stillness in the Storms, the podcast that

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helps you to suffer a little bit less.

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So today is about living.

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Today is about a little
bit of wisdom and advice.

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It's about acceptance, and
it's about not becoming stuck.

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It's about getting on with life no
matter what your situation you're in.

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But just before I move on to the
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or join my weekly calm, just head over
to stevenwebb.uk One thing that I've

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learned more than anything else, being
paralyzed, being bankrupt, being cheated

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on, being in severe pain, bleeding,
and having, uh, the most horrendous

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days ending up in a hospital and in
the most dire situations, is accept the

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moment wholeheartedly for what it is.

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Because guess what?

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You cannot change it.

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There's nothing you can do
to change the present moment.

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You cannot grow your hair longer.

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You cannot lose weight in this moment.

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You cannot get younger.

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You, you cannot change the weather.

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You cannot change the color of your house.

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There, there's just nothing you
can do once the moment has arrived.

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You cannot even change your thoughts.

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I talk about this quite often about
people always say, and I used to preach

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this all the time, "Just change your
negative thoughts into positive thoughts.

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Just think positively." Well, it just
doesn't work like that because when

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you have a thought, and what's deemed
negative is very often actually a positive

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thought because it's protecting you
or, like, alerting you to something,

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and we have a, a bad judgment of it.

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We're like, "That's bad. We don't
want those thoughts," when really

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we do need those thoughts sometimes.

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So you cannot change,
even change a thought.

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So when it's arrived.

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It's there already.

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You can change what you do with
it, the same as the present moment.

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So as soon as the present moment
is already here, we spend so much

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of our strength and so much of
our mind power and our energy

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arguing with what's already here.

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I wish it wasn't this way.

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I wish it wasn't raining.

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Just, grab the umbrella.

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It's used so much that I don't know
if I even like the phrase anymore.

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It's like learn to dance
in the rain, but it's true.

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There's so much depth
to that brilliant quote.

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It's learn to get comfortable
on the cushion you're on,

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but not too comfortable.

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Don't get too comfortable dancing in
the rain that you never want it to stop

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raining, but while it's raining, dance.

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While it's uncomfortable,
be uncomfortable.

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You know, if you're deep in
meditation, scratch the itch.

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Another one will be along.

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Don't worry about it.

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Don't, don't worry about getting rid of
some of your suffering because trust me,

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pain will come along sooner or later.

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You won't get rid of it all,
but what we can do is just

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learn to accept that moment.

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And very often, sometimes we
become the hero of all that pain.

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I spoke about this quite
at length last week.

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That hero that suffers from
the uncomfortable cushion,

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yeah, give it some energy.

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Give it some, I don't know,
some empowerment, but don't give

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it too much because you won't
be able to move on from it.

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That hero also has to have the
drive to not only accept the present

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moment, but also to have the drive
to change the present moment.

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And suffering either pulls us inward,
and we rest there, or it pushes us

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forward and allow for both to be true
because both are true, and both of

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them change simultaneously and change
during the day, change during the hour.

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If you're anything like me or every human
I've ever come across, you know, your

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energy and your energy levels can change
quicker than the weather can change

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I heard a great question the other day.

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It was a guy having a conversation with
ChatGPT, and he, he asked ChatGPT, " why

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do I remember the tougher times when
I'm embarrassed or when I'm in shame

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or when I was feeling hurt over the
times when I was happy?" And ChatGPT

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replied with, "Well, the times you
were happy already did their job."

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And boom, just like that.

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Absolutely

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When things are happy, when
things are okay, there's nothing

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you need to do with that.

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It's already there.

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That's it.

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It's okay

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But the times of hard, the times
of pain, they, they stay there

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until you learn the lesson.

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They stay there until you've either
suffered enough and you do something

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about it, or at some point in your life,
a similar pain will show up and you've

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got the muscles there, and you go,
"I know what to do with this moment,"

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because that happened years and years ago

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And there's no permanent
end to the pain or wanting.

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Samsara is, samsara is like
the map of the conscious life.

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It's just the constant cycle of born,
pain, suffering, desires, wanting,

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happiness, sadness, the rain and shine.

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That's life.

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That's what's so beautiful about life.

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It's all of it rolled into one.

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It's that, the whole spectrum, the
whole rainbow, the whole emotions,

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from pure enlightenment to shame
and guilt, and everything in between

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So when I talk about life and sorry
this podcast is going a bit here and

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there and flipping to and fro, but, you
know, grab a pillow and experience it.

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Enjoy the ride, no matter if
the ride is a bit uncomfortable

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We're partly in control.

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We're partly in control
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So if you do grab the-- a wonderful
metaphor, actually, just thinking

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about it off the top of my head.

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Wonderful metaphor is grab a
pillow, get a little comfortable,

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but keep your shoes nearby.

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That's the whole point, and

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When we start embracing all of our voices
and all of our emotions inside of us, and

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I'm not saying give them all equal weight.

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I'm not saying every emotion is
valid and every emotion is equal,

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every truth is the same truth, and
every truth is perfectly equal.

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No, they're not.

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And every single voice is not
equally, how can I say it?

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Healthy

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But all of them do have
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And depending on where you're to
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if you're climbing a mountain, that
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the most important one to have.

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The, the voice of fear or
anxiety, absolutely, that has

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a lot of weight in that moment.

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But if you're sat and you've got nothing
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and things are relatively comfortable,
that voice of, "Hey, I'm hungry.

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What's in the cupboard?" That voice is
valid and got weight in that moment.

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So all voices and all of our emotions
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should be just experience it, enjoy
it, embrace it, and learn to treat

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every voice as a friend in some way.

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"Hey, what you telling me? Why
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you for being here for me."

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And it's the same with emotions.

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If we exile half the emotions that we
don't like, we lose half the information

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and it brings me back to Rainer Rilke.

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He was a Bohemian Austrian,
and he was a poet rather than a

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traditional spiritual teacher.

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But I think he'd done so much for the
spiritual teaching, and it comes from the

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poem, "Go to the Limits of Your Longing."

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And the poem appears in one of
his books, and it was translated,

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so it may not be perfect words.

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As far as I understand and what I
read about him, because when that

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poem just blew my mind, I had to
go and find out a bit about him.

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And he had a lot to do with the
Russian spiritual teaching and

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the English translation by Joanna
Macy and Anita Burrows, I think.

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Um, I'm trying to do it
off the top of my head now.

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But the line, "Let
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Beauty and terror, just keep going

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No feeling is final.

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And I think living life means experiencing
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No feeling needs to be banished.

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No feeling needs to get the
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I think that's really important.

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You know, it's like a rainbow.

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Just imagine if… Now, I don't know
what the afterlife is, and I don't really

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take much time in thinking about it.

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I think my version of what the afterlife
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got to think about we're living here now.

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And, but you imagine if you did have an
afterlife and there was 30 seconds or

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the elevator pitch, as some people might
say, and you had that opportunity and

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someone had that opportunity to say to
you, and imagine if they looked up and

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said to you, "Oh, by the way, why did
you only choose to see half the rainbow?"

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Why did you only play the first
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That's what it would be like not living
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the low spectrum of emotions or living
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Can you imagine spending your whole time
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life and loving everybody and never
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That wouldn't be much joy either
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And I think the more we realize
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emotions… So you take evolution.

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For several million years, if
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have these complex emotions.

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You know, dogs and cats have a few
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They don't laugh and smile.

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They don't play, tell jokes.

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They're not scheming and plotting.

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Well, maybe cats are, but
I don't think dogs are.

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You know, they have a feel good or they
have a feel fear, but they don't have all

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the complex emotions that humans have.

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So we're living in a most amazing
time where humans are now experiencing

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the biggest range of emotions that
any evolved living thing on the

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planet has ever experienced, and
you are at the cutting edge of that.

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You are literally at the most
forefront of all these emotions.

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You can see more colors.

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You can see in more details.

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You can literally look across
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anything you look at with your eyes.

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How incredible is that?

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With your ears, you can hear
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You can feel emotions.

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We spend too much time trying to narrow
down how we're living life because we want

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to narrow it down to just being happy or
just being comfortable or the, the paints

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that we like and the colors that we like.

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We have a favorite color, and I
have a favorite color, earthy tones.

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You know, green and slate
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They happen to be in now, which is
brilliant because I think all decorating

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has suddenly caught up with me, or
they're my favorite at the moment.

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I don't know.

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But it's-- I think we just narrow it
down what we like, and we stay there.

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I would love to try different things.

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Doesn't mean to say I'm gonna like them.

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It doesn't mean to say I love feelings
of depression or feelings of sadness

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and shame and guilt, but what would
life be if you did not experience them?

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What would love be if you did
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And when I watched the film Albatross and
the narrator at the end talking about the

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birds on Midway Island not able to leave
because of the plastic pollution, when

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he looked up and said, "For the first
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Grieving and love is the same thing.

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It's a strong emotion,
just the opposite ends.

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It's the same stick.

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It's the same experience

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We don't wanna chop the stick down
to just the end we want because

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how would we know the difference?

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I think I'm gonna leave the podcast
there because my daughter's just turned

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up, and it's great to see her, and we're
gonna head up to a family barbecue.

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Seems like I'm always having barbecues
at the moment, but it's summer.

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That's what we do.

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I love the burnt barbecue food.

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Um, drop me an email, drop me a
comment on any of these in the review.

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And in the review, just tell
me your favorite barbecue food.

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Look, just if this was my last podcast,
it would be learn to be comfortable

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with the present moment because you
cannot change the present moment,

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and try to experience everything.

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Put on a new album.

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Pick up a different type of
paint if you're an artist.

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You know, experience different feelings.

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Ask the uncomfortable question.

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Read a book by an artist that
you've never even thought about.

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Say to someone, "What's your favorite
book?" And just read it, even if you

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don't think it'll fit you You might be
surprised Other wisdom I could offer?

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And just some simple, like little things.

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Meet people where they are.

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Stop expecting them to meet
us exactly where we are.

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Try to understand rather than overstand

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Remember there's multiple truths.

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Remember all voices are valid, but
they've not all got the same weight

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And if I was to leave you with a small
practice this week, it would be just

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ask what needs accepting right now?

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What needs accepting right now?

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Is there a feeling?

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Is there a voice?

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What am I refusing to see or hear?

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What small color can I let into my life?

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So there you go.

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That's my podcast, and hopefully
it's not gonna be my last.

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But that's my thoughts.

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You know, accept this moment completely
and wholeheartedly and expand your range.

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Just start to enjoy everything.

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Stay awake, enjoy life, see the little
leaf on the tree, see all the colors.

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Ah, yeah.

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And just thank you to everybody that
donates and supports and the emails.

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Thank you to everybody on my
weekly calm, and look, take care.

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I'll speak to you soon, and I love you