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The Emotion That Stopped Me Living | What’s Yours?

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Today, I’m diving into a big realization I had about shame and how it sneaks into our lives. I’ve been carrying this emotion for nearly 30 years without even knowing it, and it’s been holding me back from asking for help. It turns out that shame has been a huge part of my struggle, especially since my accident when I was 18. I’ve always felt guilty about needing assistance, but now I see that it’s time to face this head-on. By recognizing this feeling, I feel a newfound freedom that’s been missing for way too long. Join me as I unpack this journey and explore how facing our emotions can truly set us free.

I’m sure you’ve heard of shadows, those emotions and influences that have a large bearing on our lives yet we cannot see them. Nearly 30 years, I had no idea that this one emotion was holding me back. As I share my story of finding freedom, what about you? What emotion is holding you back?

I’m Steven Webb, your host, and sometimes we are far too close and when an ex says something that bites. Take notice.

The heart of today’s discussion revolves around a profound personal revelation that has taken years to uncover. Our speaker reflects on a conversation that revealed an unrecognized emotion: shame. This emotion, stemming from a life-changing accident at 18, has woven itself into the fabric of daily life, impacting decisions and feelings of independence. The speaker grapples with the complexities of needing help while feeling a deep-seated guilt for requiring assistance. This episode dives into the intricacies of human emotions and the importance of acknowledging them to achieve freedom and wholeness. Through personal anecdotes, we explore how shame can act as a silent barrier, subtly pulling us back from reaching out for support. The speaker’s journey towards understanding this emotion offers listeners a chance to reflect on their own barriers and the potential for growth that comes from confronting them head-on.

Takeaways:

  • The realization of shame in my life has brought a new sense of freedom.
  • Understanding that I can include all my feelings, both good and bad, is key.
  • Asking for help has been a significant struggle for me throughout my life.
  • It’s crucial to shine a light on our emotions to free ourselves from their hold.
  • Recognizing that shame has limited me has opened doors to a more fulfilling life.
  • Listening to others about what might be holding me back can lead to profound insights.

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